Missing you

                                                         Missing you !


Mind knows you have work

While heart works all the way to you

Mind stops when I try to express my pain

While heart struggles with the pain of controlling my tears

Mind knows you have stopped thinking of us

While heart hovers only with the feeling of us

Mind knows you won't be seeing this

While heart longs that you should see

Mind knows you have got hurt

While heart cries "Me too" in a fragile tone

Mind knows you are far

While heart gets furious that you are near

Mind says this is waste of time

While heart tells let's waste it for her


                                                                        - Alan Giftson

English translation for the song Thanimaye from Aarathu sinam

         Thanimaye Thanimaye

      Thanimaye Thanimaye

      Unakenna Ithanai Thaagam

      Ninaivinaal Nanaigiren

      Idhu Enna Manthira Maayam

      Loneliness O Loneliness

      Why you have this much of thirst with you?

      I am getting drenched by memories

      What is this enchanting magic?

     

     Thannaal Raatinam Pole
     Manam Unnai Sutrudhu Naalum
     Sonnaal Ketida Maaten
     Ena Kannil Kasiyuthu Eeram

     In it's own like a giant wheel

     My heart is spinning around you daily

     As if they won't hear what I say

     Tears are leaking out of my eyes 

     Ullam Vella Kaadaanadhu 

     Undhan Ninaive Oodam
     Vannam Poosiya Naatkal
     Adhai Enni Kaalam Oodum

     Heart has become a flooded forest

     Your memories is my boat

     The days of painting colours

     Time runs thinking about those days

     Vaa Vaa Arugey Vaa Kanave

     Vaa Vaa Uyire Vaa Moochu Kaatre
     Vaa Vaa Arugey Vaa Kanave
     Vaa Vaa Uyire Vaa Moochu Kaatre

     Come come near Come my dream

     Come come my life Come breath of life

     Come come near Come my dream

     Come come my life Come breath of life

     Thanimaye Thanimaye
     Unakenna Ithanai Thaagam

     Loneliness O loneliness

     Why you have this much of thirst with you?

     
     Maarbin Mele Unnai Saaithu
     Kathaigal Sona Tharunangal
     Vaarthai Ellam Oyivu Kolla
     Mounam Pesum Pozhuthugal

     The moments of telling stories

     By making you lean on my chest

     Silence speaking times while

     All words were taking rest

       

     

     
     Vinmeen Velichathil Unnodu
     Ellai Meeriya Kaalam
     Ennum Pothe Yen Indha
     Nenjam Poduthu Thaalam
     Yengo Neeyo Ange Naanum
     Vendum Enre Thondrudhe

     Times of crossing the limits 

     With you under the twilight

     While thinking of it why does

     This heart makes the rhythm

     It feels that I must be there in

     Where you are

      

     

   

    Vaa Vaa Arugey Vaa Kanave
    Vaa Vaa Uyire Vaa Moochu Kaatre
    Vaa Vaa Arugey Vaa Kanave
    Vaa Vaa Uyire Vaa Moochu Kaatre

     

     Come come near Come my dream

     Come come my life Come breath of life

     Come come near Come my dream

     Come come my life Come breath of life

     Siragin Suvadu Kaatril Yedhu
     Paravai Dhisayai Arindhida
     Parandhu Pona Vasantham Thedi
     Idhayam Inge Urugida
     Pinju Kaigal Theendaamal

     Nenju Sila Nodi Thembum
     Yendhan Devadhai Konjum
     Mozhi Yengae Ena Manam Yengum
     Yenge Mudivena Kaataamal
     Endan Saalaigal Poguthae

     Is there trace of the wings on air?
     To know the direction of the flying bird.
     In search of the happiness which flew away,

     Heart is melting in here.

     Without the touch of those childish hands

     Heart trembles some seconds 

     Heart longs as where is 
     My angel's Pampering language
     Without showing the ends
     My roads are going



     Vaa Vaa Arugey Vaa Kanave

    Vaa Vaa Uyire Vaa Moochu Kaatre
    Vaa Vaa Arugey Vaa Kanave
    Vaa Vaa Uyire Vaa Moochu Kaatre

     

     Come come near Come my dream

     Come come my life Come breath of life

     Come come near Come my dream

     Come come my life Come breath of life


     Lyrics : Viveka

                                                                           Translated by       
                                                                           - Alan Giftson

     

     

     

     

         

   


 

 

   
   
   
  

Estranged love

  Let's interchange the broken pieces of our hearts

  And fill the gap with love

  Let's make a world for the broken

  And say that we are already taken


  Let's make them count the days of our separation

  And leave the aeon of love to their imagination

  Let's do it all together, let's do it now

  Cause we were never away from each other

                                                                     - Alan Giftson

Traveller

Going far till the wheels may ask me why

Going slow till my heart may say to race the pace

Going steady till my legs may freak out

Going glowing in the darkness of the unlit path

Going hectic as the wind whirls at my face

Going, going and going as long as my heart is beating, beating and beating....

                                                         
                                                                                 - Alan Giftson

Love

   Love is a word that will have different kind of reception in different hearts. But, if we fully understand what is love, if we all I mean, every heart would have the same kind of reception. The difference is just because the difference in perception of the word. 

   

   If you ask about love to a 5-year old child, that is, querying him by understanding him and his environment. The environment here stands for the people and emotions around him, again only the people and emotions around him and not his physical environment. Querying stands for noting him, like following him and, understanding means the act of realizing why the child is like him. Like identifying who is he. The perception of the child and a teenager, the teenager and an adult, the adult and an old would differ drastically, which is expected and common. To be frank, the meaning and the view of the word "love" shrinks on growing up.

   Everyone, love and like themselves. Except those, with some kind of mental disorders. People love themselves because they like changes. And change is something that is born with us. Even born before us.  One in a hundred million of sperm cell enters the ovum and brings a change. And we must never forget that we are one in a hundred million. The change doesn't stops there, the gestation period starts and the change kick starts as well. Change and movement aren't different sects of things, we move to change. If a newborn baby isn't crying it is a serious problem. Everything in this world deserves respect as much as it adapts itself to the change. "Adaptation and change", it is what 'Evolution' is.

   Many of us would have the habit of seeing ourselves in the mirror, which is one of the best examples of love towards ourselves. Identifying ourselves in a mirror is one of the 'stand out' traits of human being, which we share with dolphins, elephants, apes and magpies, a group of "highly intelligent animals". One month of exercise which results in one inch reduced belly fat, is a joy brought from change and a change which enhances the love towards oneself. Like people saying "Self help is the best help" one can surely say that "Self love is the best love".

                                                                                              - Alan Giftson

     

   

Grave is a cave

Light! I held in my hands

Like all others, I see with it

Everyone walked with me in paths

Each path had destination which is common

And everyone knows this, I stood

Alone! Searching for others, I saw

Lights! Oh my! The light! What

Left for me? Was Darkness! With rage,

I searched my light, with courage

I had left, all that is

Left, climbed up the mountain following

Light! Light held by a colleague

Climbing became difficult, I hung on!

Cliff, one which dealt with height

A deadly height that’ll make myself lost

Around the footpaths of this Mountain

Forever! There came the light, recovering me

From this plight, I thanked and

Followed, slipping in times, I asked

For the light, “Climbing for my

Vacation”, I pleaded, “You would have

Vacation which is certain”, with frustration

I heard his reply, the spat

Induced a gap, between the light

And I, Dull became the light

Annoying the lazy me to the full

Pushed hard, closed my eye

Pulled the barriers away, opened

My eye! when “I” died, Hurray!

Mesmerized, saw the Light! One!

Only one! Amazed, carried the light

On my way, to the farthest sight

No lights! Except one! Heard sound

No! Know the sound before, Sound!

The slipping sound! Realized myself, ran

To my place, placed the light

Leaned to my right, felt my

Lonely heart, “Grave is a Cave”

                                                    - Alan Giftson

‘Hey, You’ the “change”

     There are many days, when I had thought about India. Like ‘Why is our country like this?’, ’If the politics will always be like this?’, ‘Will it change?’ this and that, so on. At last if I draw into a conclusion such as ’Change is within us’, then the question arises ‘If the change within me is enough? Is it enough for the whole society? Will it bring freedom, the freedom from corruption, exploitation?’ my gut feel said ‘No’. Here is an example, “I am a resident in a so and so city, and my street is dreaded with garbage. I threw my house’s waste in the street, so like my neighbors. I have a child and he is affected by cholera. I admit him in the hospital and now, he is alright. But, the doctor advises me to keep my surroundings clean. Because of that, I stop myself from throwing the wastes in the street and put it in the garbage can. Even now, the street is filthy and dirty, then, I force my neighbors to stop throwing wastes in the street. In due course of time, they agree and the street is now clean. And yet, it hadn’t ended, the garbage can overflowed with wastes. I and my neighbors called the concerned authority, but they didn’t respond to us in the right manner. So, we complained about it in the higher authority, corrupt as much as the former they also didn’t gave an appropriate answer. Rather than wasting our time in complaining, we decided to clean our street on our own”. If you demand to change something, change it by yourself. If you couldn’t, stand behind the one who could do it. And, you can’t be sure of him. The change can change him, so be the one like an armed man who guards a suspect or be the friend who slaps his friend on his sin. After all, it’s better if its’ you who brought the change. A good leader must create a society which will pinpoint a mistake even if it is 'his'.

                                                                - Alan Giftson